So my senior year is finally over!!! God has truly blessed me. I survived the dreaded SPEECH and just had my graduation party last night, so it seems all my activities related to high school are now over…weird.
This week, the first week of summer, I had the joy of participating in Mission Venice. During Mission Venice, the youth of different churches get together to serve our own town, Venice, in the name of Jesus. I am not gonna lie, when the leadership team asked me to lead worship, I didn’t want to! Sad, I know. I wanted to sleep in and rest and not wear those matching shirts that we have to wear every day…But it was more than that, actually – I was afraid. I have played my guitar and led worship in church and on mission trips, but there is always that fear when you perform for an audience your own age who know your name and face. What if I messed up??? What if no one sang??? What if they thought I was terrible??? Then God gave me his wisdom in the words of a middle schooler – I was not performing, I was leading. To lead worship, I have to first be in a place of worship. The chords, the sound quality, my voice, all of these things mean nothing if I am not singing with all my heart to praise the Lord. God is good, and he deserves my total adoration. How can I think about sharing his Spirit if I am not first filled with the Spirit? It is funny how God chooses to speak to us. Maybe middle school students are not known for their wisdom, but God chose to use one to get through to me.
Them darn middle schoolers. I felt the same way you did last week when I shared about our trip with my entire church. I hate speeches, but it wasn’t about me, it was about God and His will. I am sure you will do fine, when you put it in perspective we really aren’t offering that much back compared to his sacrifice. That’s how I think about it anyways. Have fun, do well.
Hey Amiga,
your beautiful and so is your voice and you SPIRIT! 🙂
I love you tons and your growing and leading is awesome!
what happened to our skype date?
Love you,
Sarah HARGAN